**“Si Je Mange, Je Vais En Enfer” dives into the secret battle many people fight at mealtimes. Joyce Jonathan sings as if she is confessing a hidden diary: she once believed that every bite would doom her to l’enfer (hell). Shame pushed her to skip family dinners, dodge happy get-togethers, and build an “isolated world” where hunger felt safer than judgment. The pounding chorus repeats her fear—“Si j’mange, j’vais en enfer”—making us feel the weight of an eating disorder that swallows both body and mind.
Yet the song is not only about darkness; it is also about release. By the final verse, Joyce reveals she has “taken a step back,” naming the illness out loud and shrinking its power. Eating no longer equals condemnation; it can even be “paradise.” Her journey from secrecy to self-acceptance turns the track into an anthem of courage, reminding listeners that talking, sharing, and seeking help can transform the most isolated table into a place of hope.