Now and then I notice
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that I can't laugh anymore
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at stuff I used to find funny
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Now and then I also realize
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that I don't need people
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and I'd rather be totally alone
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Yet the pain is sugar-sweet
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and somehow so familiar
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I've gotten used to it
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So for the final consequence
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once again that bit of guts is missing
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and the paradox rage about it
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by the sh*tty lightness of appearance
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Now and then it becomes clear to me
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that everything's turned different
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than it seems it once was
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that I don't like the sun anymore
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'cause I can't stand the bright light
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Yet the pain is sugar-sweet
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and somehow so familiar
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I've gotten used to it
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So for the final consequence
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once again that bit of guts is missing
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and the paradox rage about it
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by the sh*tty lightness of appearance
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Like a square in a circle
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I keep hitting edges
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even though I've long known
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that I can never change
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what will never change
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because the bad always stays
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and yet the sun shines again
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don't give a sh*t what happens
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Like a square in a circle
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even though I've long known
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that I can never change
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what will never change
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because the bad always stays
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and yet the sun shines again
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Over and over I notice
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that this now and then
is more and more constant